Pandemic Dreams

night moonI’m sure it can’t just be me that is having way more dreams during the pandemic, and I still do. Many feel so real and vivid. The struggle is that they are very mixed up; different places I have worked, people I have worked with, friends from high school, college, various camps right up to the present.

I woke up one morning convinced that my daughter had come home in the middle of the night. It felt so real I went to check her bedroom. Turns out it was also Wednesday, not Sunday. Dreams often don’t make sense. 

Often it’s people I haven’t seen in a while, or longer. And it usually leaves me lying awake after I get one of these vivid dreams. While I’m awake, it has become my habit to pray for the person who has been brought to my mind by the dream. 

I wondered if it was just me. After asking some friends, I discovered it’s not just me, so I’m nit completely crazy. So I wanted to learn some more and find out the why behind the more vivid dreams. Here is part of what I discovered. 

COVID has altered our dream worlds: how much we dream, how many of our dreams we remember and the nature of our dreams themselves. Although widespread changes in dreaming had been reported in the U.S. following extraordinary events such as the 9/11 attacks in 2001 and the 1989 San Francisco earthquake, a surge of this magnitude had never been documented. This upwelling of dreams is the first to occur globally and the first to happen in the era of social media, which makes dreams readily accessible for immediate study. As a dream “event,” the pandemic is unprecedented. *

One obvious explanation for the surge is that sleep patterns changed abruptly when lockdowns took effect. Stay-at-home orders, which removed long commutes to work, improved sleep for many people. Some 54 percent of people in Finland said they slept more after lockdown. Overall, time asleep in the U.S. increased almost 20 percent nationwide. *

* http://www.scientificamerican.com/article/the-covid-19-pandemic-is-changing-our-dreams/

Build for the Future

Lego blocksThere is probably no better or more popular building toy than Lego. It doesn’t matter if you’re 5, 25, 45 or almost 60, almost everyone likes building with those little plastic blocks. And, it endures. The blocks I used as a kid are still in use today. Lego has longevity. 

So does a person’s legacy.

Legacy is something I have been thinking about more as I get older (note I didn’t say old). What am I leaving behind that will outlast me? Who have I influenced that will carry on my work or be motivated to start their own good works? What will I be remembered for? 

Let us build for the years we shall not see.” Thomas Walker (missionary with Amy Carmichael in India).

Now that I am no longer working at Christian summer camps, I think my legacy will the impact of showing the way to so many staff, campers, co-workers and partners over the 42 years I worked at camps. I have certainly lost count of the number of staff and campers, not to mention retreat groups and leaders that I have been able to influence in some way. 

I don’t think that I will see or know the results this side of heaven. I have had the privilege of seeing glimpses into the journey of other people I influenced who have gone on to influence others. And I believe that those others have gone on to influence more and so on. For so much of my life I have been building future leaders and building for eternity in the Kingdom of God. 

My journey and my work are different now. I work remotely with a security guard and support company. And, in my other work, I help families get the right financial services they need. These are my new areas of influence. I need to do the best I can with the new tasks that God has given me. 

There is no greater joy, nor greater reward than to make a fundamental difference in someone’s life.” Mary Rose McGeady

What will your legacy be? What are the building blocks you are using? Who will you influence next? 

Discovering My Scottish Roots

Flag of ScotlandI have been tracking my family genealogy back to Scotland, England and Ireland. In the process, I’m discovering fun ways to say things as well as idioms or proverbs. Next is Scotland. Scottish sayings and words, combined with that unmistakable accent, can often make English sound like an entirely different language in Canada. I have discovered lots of family there. 

Hogmanay is New Year’s Eve and Ne’erday is New Year’s Day. 

Where’s yer baffles” meaning where are your slippers.

“Whit’s fur ye’ll no go past ye.” – This one basically means ‘whatever is meant to happen to you, will happen to you”! 

“You’re a wee scunner!” – This was usually said with a touch of impatience, as a fair translation would be “You’re a little whiner/nuisance”

“She’s up to high doh” – This means “She’s all worked up” or “She’s got herself all riled up”.

“A pritty face suits the dish-cloot” – Basically it means “A pretty face suits the dish-cloth”. The general idea is ‘if you’ve got a pretty face, it doesn’t matter what you’re wearing’. 

“Awa’ an bile yer heid” – Simply putting it into English results in “Away and boil your head!”. What it means is something along the lines of ‘Get lost!’ or ‘Forget it!’ – and it’s usually said to someone who is deemed to be talking rubbish, or wasting your time.

“Don’t be a wee clipe!” – It means “Don’t be a little tell-tale!”.

“Yer bum’s oot the windae!” – Direct English translation would be “Your bum is out the window”, but the actual meaning of this phrase is something along the lines of ‘You’re talking rubbish (trash)’, or ‘You’re not making any sense’

“I’m getting the messages” – ‘Messages’ are ‘groceries’ or other things that you’d get from the store. So, literally speaking this Scottish phrase means “I’m doing the (grocery) shopping”.

“It’s time to get your jags” – ‘Jags’ are vaccinations, so it means “It’s time for your shots”

“I’m going ta skelp yer wee behind!” – The English version would be “I’m going to smack your little bottom” (bottom is ‘butt’ or ‘rear’). 

“They’re flitting” – This translates to “They’re moving house”. ‘Flit’ is to ‘move’.

“A nod’s as guid as a wink tae a blind horse” – The English translation is ‘A nod is as good as a wink to a blind horse’, but that’s still a bit obscure. The best I can come up with in terms of what it means is this… ‘If the horse is blind it doesn’t matter whether you nod your head or wink your eye, he still won’t see it’. Hmm… not sure when I’d use that one, but I’m sure it will come in handy one day :o)

“Yer aff yer heid!” –Translated it says “You’re off your head!”, meaning ‘you’re crazy’.

“Haud yer wheesht!” – Okay, you may need a little help with this one though. English translation is “Hold your tongue” or “Be quiet!”. Strangely enough I didn’t hear this one too much. Of course, the fact that Nanas’ hearing wasn’t good may have been a factor there.

“Lang may yer lum reek” – Translated this Scottish saying becomes “Long may your chimney smoke” – meaning ‘May you live long and keep well’. Perhaps Mr Spock of Star Trek fame said it even better “Live long and prosper” 

“Ah dinnae ken” – This one is short and simple, translates to “I don’t know”

“Guid gear comes in sma’ bulk” – Another short one, basically it means “Good things come in small packages”.

Scottish Words Can Be Just As Odd!

  • Auld – Old
  • Aye – Yes
  • Bahoochie – Bottom/Backside/Butt
  • Backgreen – garden or back yard
  • Bairn – Baby or Young Child
  • Blether – Chatter-box
  • Boke – Gag or Vomit
  • Bonnie – Beautiful
  • Braw – Good or Nice
  • Burn – Stream or Creek
  • Canny – Careful, or sometimes Clever
  • Chancer – Con-man, Trickster
  • Clarty – Dirty or Unkempt
  • Clatty – another word for dirty
  • Clipe – This means to ‘tell on’ someone, or ‘snitch’
  • Chitter – Shiver
  • Coorie (in) – Snuggle (in)
  • Crabbit – Bad-tempered or Grumpy
  • Dae – (pronounced ‘day’) Do
  • Dauner – (pronounced ‘donna’) Stroll or Saunter
  • Dinnae – Don’t
  • Drookit – Soaking Wet
  • Eejit – Idiot
  • Footer – Fidget (can be a verb or a noun)
  • Girn – Complain or Whine
  • Glaekit – Stupid
  • Glen – Valley
  • Greet – Cry
  • Guy – Very
  • Haud – Hold
  • Haver – Talk Nonsense
  • Keek – Peek
  • Ken – Know
  • Laldie – Scold/Reprimand
  • Loch – Lake
  • Lum – Chimney
  • Noo – Now
  • Wee Nyaff – Little nuisance (as in a person)
  • Och! – Oh!
  • Oxters – Armpits
  • Peely-walley – Pale or Wan
  • Pettet-lip – pouty lip
  • Piece – Snack or Sandwich
  • Pinkie – Little Finger
  • Scunner – Nuisance
  • Scunnered – Bored or Fed-Up
  • Siangabbit – with an underbite
  • Skelp – Slap
  • Skyte – To slip or slide across a hard surface, or a glancing blow
  • A Skelping – A Thrashing
  • Sleekit – Sneaky
  • Slitter – Messy Eater
  • Tattie – Potato
  • Tumshie (aka ‘Neeps’) – Turnip (or Rutabaga in the US)
  • Wain – (pronounced Wayne) Child
  • Yin – One
  • Yon – That

Scottish Phrases of Endearment

For some reason there seems to be a lot of assumption about Scots being more aggressive than their southern neighbours. I mean, I won’t deny they are a passionate folk, but it goes both ways, as well as some of the angriest words spoken, since being in Scotland I’ve definitely heard some of the most affectionate too.

Hen– being perhaps the most widely recognized. Not to be confused with the feathery fowl, but instead referring to a female, often a younger lady, used as a Scottish term of endearment, much like honey or sweetheart might be used further South.

If aforementioned hen was a particularly lovely looking girl, she might be refereed to as a bonnie lass.

And then we have ‘Lang mae yer lum reek‘, which sounds like it would be announced accompanied by an unpleasant smell, but is in fact a pleasant Scottish sentiment, originally translated from ‘long may your chimney smoke’ and now meaning something akin to I wish you a long and healthy life.

Beautiful Scottish Words

  1. Coorie – To cuddle or nestle in, especially when it is cold. Similar to the ‘cwtch’ for our Welsh friends.
  2. Smourich – A kiss!
  3. Crouss– To be cheerful.
  4. Flichterin‘- Soft fluttering, as in the wings of a butterfly, or the flame of a candle.
  5. Gloaming– Twilight or dusk.
  6. Solasta– Luminous or shining
  7. Saorsa– Freedom, liberty.
  8. Turadh– A break in the clouds between showers.
  9. Fearthainn– Rain.
  10. Monadh– Moorland covered mountain.

A few more:

  • Yer lookin’ a bit peely wally – Meaning you look pale or ill.
  • That’s gee-in me the boak – A gross but classic Scottish expression one might use if something was making them feel sick!
  • Gonny no dae that – Means please don’t do that!
  • Haud yer weesht – Is a not super polite way of saying ‘be quiet’!
  • She’s up tae high doh – This is pretty much how I feel every day- it mean’s she’s riled up and flustered, the original context coming from ‘doh’ being the highest note on the scale, so really worked up high!
  • Hairy Coo – Literally means ‘hairy cow’ but is what locals often refer to their Highland Cows as.
  • I’ll gie ye a skelpit lug – A phrase my Gran used to favour- meaning I’ll give you a slap on the ear!
  • Whit’s fur ye’ll no go by ye! – What’s meant to happen will happen, or what will be will be.
  • Skinny Malinky Longlegs – (Like the song!) Said about a tall, thin person.
  • Haste Ye Back! – This is a kind of farewell greeting, meaning ‘return soon’
  • It’s a dreich day – This saying is used in reference to the weather, on a cold, damp and miserable day.

Old Scottish Sayings

  • Haste Ye Back! – Return back with speed – said as a farewell
  • Lang may yer lum reek! – Literally meaning long may your chimney smoke, this is typically a toast to one’s health, wishing one lives long and healthy
  • Keep the heid! – Keep your head or stay calm
  • Hell slap it intae ye! – It is your own fault
  • Failing means yer playin! – Trying and failing, but at least you are trying.
  • I’ll gie ye a skelpit lug! – I’ll hit you on the ear
  • Whit’s fur ye’ll no go by ye! – What is for you will not go by you, meaning, what will be, will be
  • Skinny Malinky Longlegs! -A tall and skinny person
  • Speak o’ the Devil! – When someone you are speaking about shows up
  • Black as the Earl of Hell’s Waistcoat! – the colour Black
  • Ah dinnae ken. – I don’t know
  • We’re a’ Jock Tamson’s bairns! – Everyone is God’s children, nobody is better, everyone is equal
  • Dinnae teach yer Granny tae suck eggs! – Stop teaching someone something they already know
  • Dinnae marry fur money! – It’s cheaper in the long run to borrow money than marry for it
  • Noo jist haud on! – Now just hold it, take your time, you’re speaking too fast
  • Is the cat deid? – Has the cat died? This means your trousers are too short, similar to “is your budgie/parrot dead?”
  • Haud yer wheesht! – Shut up
  • Gie it laldy. – Doing something with energy or inappropriateness
  • It’s a dreich day! – A miserable, cold, wet day in reference to the weather
  • Mony a mickle maks a muckle! – Small amounts of savings soon build up to large amounts
  • I’m fair puckled! – I’m out of breath
  • Do yer dinger. – Showing disapproval
  • Gonnae no’ dae that! – Don’t do that
  • Pure dead brilliant – Amazing
  • Yer bum’s oot the windae – You are lying or exaggerating
  • Am pure done in – I am pretty tired
  • Am a pure nick – I am not looking my best
  • Ah umnae – I am not
  • Ma heid’s mince – My head is mince, meaning I’m a bit confused
  • Yer oot yer face! – You’re extremely intoxicated from the effects of alcohol
  • Yer aff yer heid – You’re off your head – crazy
  • T’ Auld Yin – The old one
  • Scran – food
  • Haud Yer Wheesht! – Be quiet 
  • Aye – Yes
  • Bairn – Child
  • Bampot – Either and idiot or a character of a shady disposition.
  • Blootered – Drunk
  • Boggin – Disgusting
  • Boke – Sick
  • Bonnie/Bonny – Beautiful
  • Canny – Cannot
  • Clatty – Disgusting
  • Clipe – Tell tale
  • Crabbit – Grumpy or agitated
  • Craic – usually said “good craic” meaning good fun or “what’s the craic” meaning what is happening.
  • Dae – Do
  • Dafty – Someone who is stupid or an idiot.
  • Dinnae – Don’t
  • Eejit – Idiot (see ‘Dafty’)
  • Eh – What or an invitation for someone to respond or agree. Also VERY Canadian, eh!
  • Greet/Greetin – Cry or crying
  • Hackit – Ugly
  • Haud – Hold
  • Haver – Lie
  • Hoachin – Busy
  • Hunners – Literally hundreds but usually to describe a large quantity
  • Jake/Jakey – Someone poor. Used as an adjective, jakey means scummy
  • Ken – Know or do you know
  • Lassy – Girl
  • Minging – Disgusting
  • Mockit – Dirty
  • Munter – Ugly
  • Patch Abandon plans, stop
  • Peely-wallyNot 100%. A bit out of sorts
  • Randan – Causing carnage under the influence
  • Scran – Food
  • Scunnered – Disappointed
  • Skelped/Scudded – Hit
  • Steamin – Drunk
  • Stoter – Idiot
  • Tap – Top
  • Tattie – Potatoe
  • Wee – Wee (small) 
  • Whitey – Sick
  • Winch/Winchin – Kiss
  • Wopper – Someone embarrassing
  • Yaldy – Excitement
  • Yon – That or those

What would you add? 

Christmas Magic

Christmas NutcrackersThe run up to Christmas means it’s Hallmark and decorating seasons in our house. Hallmark first. 

Wishing for something is just figuring out what your heart really wants. From Hallmark’s Gingerbread Miracle

In the Gingerbread Miracle, when Alex starts baking the gingerbread cookies the magic returns: Gabe receives a hockey scholarship, Sydney is discovered and given an opportunity to pursue photography, and Jake gets to keep his dream bakery. This is after his father’s cookies lose their magic to grant wishes. 

When it comes to decorating, I get to do the outside (lights and nutcrackers) and Elaine does a lot of the inside (trees, garlands and more). I collect nutcrackers (about 45) and Elaine (about 25) collects snow people. All together the decorations make the house feel magical for the holidays.

That got me thinking about other Christmas magic moments. Here are some I have experienced. 

  • Watching my grandkids enjoy GT rides in the snow behind our garden tractor. And every time I stopped the cries were for “more” and “again, again”. 
  • A Hallmark (or other) movie that includes someone who is adopted. Brings up lots of emotions for me. 
  • All my brothers, most of our kids and grandkids getting together for our annual Greenfield Family Christmas.
  • An amazing evening with a group of good friends that we have been cut off from for too long. 
  • A package of gifts for my whole family arrives from my sister in Texas who I have only known for two years. (see adoption for context)
  • The Holiday Ride commercial by Chevrolet. You may need to watch this with a box of tissues. 
  • The Christmas Eve service at church back when we could have candles and light up the room with just the candles. 
  • In 2019 getting two new siblings for Christmas. 
  • Sitting around the Christmas dinner table sharing a meal, life and celebrating the birth of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. 
  • My daughter making me two giant Nutcracker soldiers (pictured in this post). 
  • Watching the wonder in the eyes of my grandkids when opening Christmas gifts! Sometimes the big kids too. 

If someone gave you a magical ginger cookie, what would you wish for? What are/were your magical Christmas moments this season. 

Merry Christmas!!!!!

You Are Witnesses Against Yourselves!

gavelI’m sure you have hear it said, “people aren’t opposed to Jesus, but to the people who represent him”. The Christian church and it’s people are witnesses against ourselves. Each of us bears this responsibility. 

“Now therefore fear the LORD and serve him in sincerity and in faithfulness. Put away the gods that your fathers served beyond the River and in Egypt, and serve the LORD. And if it is evil in your eyes to serve the LORD, choose this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your fathers served in the region beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you dwell. But as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.” Joshua 24:14-15

Then Joshua said to the people, “You are witnesses against yourselves that you have chosen the LORD, to serve him.” And they said, “We are witnesses.” Joshua 24:22

The nation of Israel agreed with Joshua, but when they strayed away from God to follow after other gods, they judged themselves, by their own actions, as guilty of breaking the Law of God. 

We have the same problem in the church today. There’s a word for Christians who say one thing and do another. The word is hypocrite. We need to walk, demonstrate and live out our beliefs and what Jesus taught us to do. Yes, of course I understand that we are still sinners and we will sin. BUT, we can’t let our sin be our main reference people have for us. That is what leads to this quote and others like it: 

I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.”  Mahatma Gandhi

The apostle Peter says, “Beloved, I beg you as sojourners and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts which war against the soul, having your conduct honorable among the Gentiles, that when they speak against you as evildoers, they may, by your good works which they observe, glorify God in the day of visitation”. 1 Pet 2:11-12

Peter admonishes us to live for Christ in such a way that it would actually draw people to Christ. This is the exact opposite of what happened to Gandhi. Furthermore, this is the exact opposite of what happens so many times to people who are watching us as well.

It’s not so much that Christians have an image problem. It’s far more likely that we have an integrity problem. Carey Nieuwhof

Too many of those who claim to be Christians or Christ followers tend to be judgmental, hypocritical and cold or unfriendly. We do not reflect the unconditional love of Jesus. We judge ourselves by our actions of not doing what Jesus commanded us to do. 

Matthew 22:35-40 sums it up nicely.

Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together. One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question: “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

You can’t judge someone and love them at the same time. Carey Nieuwhof 

Whatever we believe, how we act will demonstrate it louder than our words. Don’t let your actions make you a witness against yourself. 

World Adoption Day 2022

siblingsToday, November 9th is World Adoption Day. Most of you know that I am adopted. I was adopted at the age of 6 months into the Greenfield family. Since last year’s annual adoption day post: 

  • Elaine and I met two of my birth siblings and their spouses in person in Alberta. The picture at right is me with Jill & Sam. Pretty strong genetics here. 
  • Met with a group of cousins on my birth dad’s side in Calgary including the cousin who helped me discover my birth dad. Plus two recently returned from Scotland with pictures and info from family there. What a great night of discovery and sharing family history.
  • Met with a first cousin on my birth mom’s side.
  • Found more close cousins through Ancestry and connected with them online. 
  • Found a 4th cousin at the end of my road (I know, it’s crazy right?) 
  • Built my family tree up to over 17,000 people with lots of records and pictures. 
  • Have become obsessed (Elaine’s word) with Ancestry and genealogy. That may not be just in the last year.
  • I have also connected more with my brothers through this journey.

There are lots of people I know that are adopted and recently discovered that Aaron Judge (Yankees baseball player in case you didn’t know) was adopted. Pretty cool.

I have been writing about adoption around the World Adoption Day for a few years now. If you want to read any of those other blogs, you can check them out on meanderingmoose.ca. 

Check out www.worldadoptionday.org for more information. 

The Start of a New Chapter

IMG_20220609_1708469After my job at MBC came to an end last fall, I was uncertain of where God would lead me. I did not anticipate a change of industry from Christian camping to security and support work. God’s timing is not my timing. I went to MBC assuming that I could retire from there and finish my career in Christian camping. That was not to be. I had not expected to be looking for work at 58 years old or changing industries all together. 

This time has given me time itself. Time to build projects for people. To help people. I have gotten things off the list that were there since we moved into the house 21 years ago. In the time I was given, I built a Murphy bed for my grandson, been rebuilding decks, helping others, cutting trees, built some planters, plus shelving and other projects at home (like the box at right in our sunroom). 

I applied for a few positions, some camp, some not, but nothing worked out. The change really came when we started to pray differently. I credit my wife Elaine for this change. She (and I) started praying that God would have someone seek me out for the skills and experience I could offer their organization. Within a very short time that is exactly what happened. He worked for me a long while ago, so it seems turn about is fair play. 

For those who don’t know, I have taken a position as General Manger of Unitas Community Health and Safety, a security and support company. Half time for now, with the goal of full time in January or sooner if it works out. I started on Tuesday, September 6th. 

The Unitas mission is to offer safety and security staff to support social service facilities in the GTA & Hamilton. Unitas provides security, support staff, transportation services and personal support workers to agencies serving the community. 

And Unitas achieves a ‘sense of place’ essential to a safe community. We work within our client’s mandate providing support and leverage for their mission. Our clients are often non profit organizations providing housing, health care and social programming. Collectively we focus on people facing issues of homelessness, mental health and addictions. 

I don’t know the whole outcome yet, but I am trusting the One who does, even though I would prefer to have more details up front. The adventure continues. 

Favourite Sounds I Miss From Camp

campfire-2019I haven’t been at camp this summer as my camp was closed and I am currently between opportunities. I recently saw a post in the Summer Camp Pros Facebook group that asked, “In the midst of summer, what is your favorite sound during camp?” I always loved sitting on the back deck of the Longhouse (the main building) overlooking the lower field and watching the campers run and play at various activities. Here are some of the sounds I have been missing this summer (in no particular order).

  1. The sound of staff praying with and for each other at staff prayer at 7:00 am daily.
  2. The sound of camper cheers in the dining hall (sometimes to the point of being deafening).
  3. Campers and staff singing in chapel. And the Word of God being proclaimed.
  4. Contently chattering of young voices when they are focused on a project.
  5. The cheers during field or wide games.
  6. Hearing “Moose” (my camp name) being called across a field or the Longhouse.
  7. The sound of quiet after evening program.
  8. The sound of rain approaching.
  9. The crackle of a campfire and the cheers for an Elijah fire.
  10. All the conversation, chatter and laughter during meals.
  11. Campers and staff crying at the end of a session because they don’t want to leave camp.
  12. Staff at the end of the summer telling they favourite stories and about what they learned over the summer.
  13. The kitchen staff singing loudly songs from my generation while prepping meals or cleaning up.
  14. The sounds of “Morning Monkeysand “Words from the Tower”. 
  15. The sound of competition from the Gaga pit or 9 Square. 
  16. The whistle of the wind in the trees and the crunch of the maple and oak leaves underfoot in the fall. 
  17. The sound of talk going quiet when I walk into the room and knowing something is up. 
  18. The sound of one staff teaching another how to do something. 
  19. The planning for a good prank (approved of course). 
  20. The words I have said for years coming back to me from a staff member, like “we are one team!”. 
  21. The sound of the purple Widji front gate squeaking sound of metal on metal. 
  22. The air horn signaling a drill or an emergency. 
  23. The sound of the buses arriving… and leaving. 
  24. The whistle at the waterfront. 
  25. The shout as everyone charges the middle of the field for Widjiitiwin basketball
  26. Cabin cheers after dinner on Sunday nights.
  27. Microphone check, response 1, 2; and repeat call to get everyone’s attention.

What would you add?

My Health Journey Continues

Brain Scan2022 started a new chapter in my health journey. Or maybe it’s a different continuation of an old path. I had an MRI of my head. One of the pictures is to the right. In brief, right eye problems, lots of tests including heart, an MRI, more doctors and I broke four vertebrae. More tests to follow…

Update 1 – January 11

I’ve been having trouble with clouding in my right eye since last Wednesday. Diagnosis from late Friday is non arteritic ischemic optic neuropathy. I need to see my GP for blood pressure and have my cholesterol checked. 

Saw my family doctor on Monday morning. He needs more info from the optometrist before deciding the next move. Likely to see an ophthalmologist. My blood pressure was normal. All my other levels are fine. I’m not allowed to drive for now. More blood work was done Tuesday morning. Since I’m so good at waiting, this should be easy. Most of you will hear the sarcasm. 

Update 2 – January 15

  • This has been a whirlwind week.
  • On Monday I saw my family doctor. More blood tests were ordered and all the results came back good. He put me on a daily aspirin and some cholesterol meds (I’m on the high end of normal).
  • On Thursday I had a follow up appt with my optometrist to redo the field test. My right eye was cloudier (aka worse). I get to keep my driver’s license (for now).
  • Friday morning he called and told me I had an appt with an ophthalmologist in Barrie at 10:30. It was 9:15. We made it. More eye tests. She says stoke is now ruled unlikely. MS is possible. She is thinking it’s optic neuritis. An MRI was ordered, but could take months. She also put me on a three day course of heavy steroids. Today is day one. I may not sleep much tonight.
  • Electrocardiogram is booked for next Friday
  • Heart monitor coming soon
  • Pray that my right eye will heal. Please pray that the MRI appt comes sooner than later. And that the doctors will figure out the root causes.

Update 3 – January 28

I had my MRI in Orillia last week and the results were back before my Wednesday appointment with the ophthalmologist. There is no further decline in my vision. I got to see the imaging which is very interesting. There is not enough evidence to say it is MS, though not ruled out exactly. The diagnosis is optic neuritis due to nerve inflammation. I have a follow up appointment with the optometrist for a vision field test mid February.

I had an ECG on Wednesday and most of it was good news. Very cool to watch the heart movements on the screen. I have a dilated coronary sinus persistent left superior vena cava. Yeah, I had to Google it too even after the doctor explained it. There is a CT scan with contrast dye in my future to look into this more. That’s it for now.

Update 4 – February 10

This week I had a CT scan with contrast dye. Weird feeling as the dye went through my body. The dilated coronary sinus persistent left superior vena cava is confirmed, but based on the imaging there is nothing to follow up on or worry about.

This afternoon I have a follow up field test for the vision in my right eye. The first one was January 7th and showed my left eye was missing the bottom section of vision. A week later it was worse. Today, I only have one small spot where I couldn’t see the flashing light. The Dr. gives the credit to the steroids. I include much prayer and give the credit to God. My right eye vision is not back to normal, but is improving. That’s it for now.

Update 5 – March 24

I saw a neurologist two weeks ago in search of more answers. She reviewed my MRI and took a thorough medical history with me including my newly learned biological family history. She thinks my double vision, foot and hand numbness and latest vision issue are all connected. Moving forward, she has ordered more blood tests looking to rule out Lupus (unlikely) and rheumatoid arthritis. She has also ordered a second MRI of my brain and a new one for my spinal cord.

Then I’m going for a nerve connection study. Hopefully we can find some answers. If we don’t find answers there, there is an option of a possible spinal tap as the fluid holds some key info. Now to wait for more tests and results. 

Update 6 – August 2022

After 59 years I broke my first bone. Well, four actually (L1, L2, L3 and L4). Tuesday, August I fell off a ladder (about a 10-foot drop) while cutting a large tree limb. The limb came back, knocked the ladder and I fell to the ground. I don’t think I hit my head, but my back was, and is, in a lot of pain. I could not stand on my own. So, I went by ambulance to Bracebridge hospital. They did a spinal x-ray, plus a CT scan of head, neck and spine.

They found 4 fractured vertebrae in the lumbar region (picture above), fortunately not impinging the spinal cord. After a surgery/trauma consultation with doctors at St. Mike’s in Toronto, it was determined that no surgery was required. They say the fractures are very stable and are within a ligament, so no worry of them shifting. The next step was some pain meds and to see how well I could move. And I finally got to have some water. Two rounds of meds later, sitting up, then walking, they determined I was okay to go home. Fun fact, I set off the alarms for blood pressure, respiration (I was holding my breath during the pain) and heart rate.

I am feeling very blessed for God’s protection. And as my father-in-law would say, I was keeping my angel busy. Besides the fractured vertebrae, I have right side pain making deep breaths hard, bruised ribs and road rash. I’m on two overlapping pain meds and a muscle relaxant. Recovery is expected to be 6-8 weeks. Activity will be based on managing my pain level. Now four weeks later, I have more movement, am off the heavy meds and able to relax some more. Still no heavy work for a while.

My Adoption & Genealogy

Greenfield-Copeland Fan ChartIn addition to birth siblings, cousins, aunts, uncles and other relations, I discovered I am related to some famous cousins as I dig into a cool tool on familysearch.org. I have also discover that I have a 4th cousin 1x removed at the end of my own road and had no idea until her brother did a DNA test. It’s like a big puzzle to figure out the genealogy! (note: “x removed” means a different generation either before or after mine). And in the last week, I discovered more Purvis family living in Ontario. 

Here are a few of my famous cousin discoveries: 

  • Abraham Lincoln, US President, 8th cousin 4x removed
  • Agatha Christie, author, 10th cousin 2x removed
  • Amelia Earhart, aviation pioneer, 6th cousin 2x removed
  • Diana Spencer, Princess of Wales, 10th cousin (no, I am not in line for the throne) 
  • Elvis Presley, musician, actor, 11th cousin
  • Franklin D Roosevelt, US President, 8th cousin 4x removed
  • Gordie Howe, hockey player, 12th cousin 1x removed
  • John F Kennedy, US President, 9th cousin 3x removed
  • John Wayne, actor, 7th cousin 1x removed
  • Marie Antionette, Queen of France, 7th cousin 7x removed
  • Mark Twain, author, 6th cousin 6x removed
  • Neil Armstrong, 1st man on moon, 12th cousin 2x removed
  • Orville & Wilbur Wright, airplane inventors, 7th cousin 4x removed
  • Samuel Morse, telegraph creator, 5th cousin 5x removed
  • Theodore Roosevelt, US President, 9th cousin 4x removed
  • Thomas Edison, inventor, 9th cousin 4x removed
  • Walt Disney, animator, producer & theme park guru, 7th cousin 2x removed
  • Winston Churchill, UK Prime Minister, 8th cousin 2x removed

It’s a very interesting journey!!